I will never be able to love without question. I will always wonder why me? why am I good enough? I have accepted this about myself, and have learned to suppress these thoughts.
You came along almost a year ago. I walked into the restaurant, and you almost dropped those wine glasses when we made eye contact. In that moment, I knew I had to take a risk. In that moment, I decided to be bold, and to stop playing games. I liked you, and if you didn’t return the feelings I would find someone else.
There could never be anyone else.
Sure, this has the possibility of not working out. We are both still young, and life has the potential to pull us apart.
Know this. I love you with an intensity that I could never imagine. I love you when you’re here, and when you’re gone. I wonder what you’re doing when you’re out, but I know that I have nothing to fear.
other people may try to compete with what we have, but they could never be a replacement.
Thank you. Thank you for forcing me to take a risk. Thank you for constantly pushing my boundaries. Thank you for bringing me into your family. Thank you for loving me.
This has been the most satisfying year of my life, and I pray that this is only the beginning.
every day I realize that this will be the most stable relationship of my life.
every day I try to not think of our future because our plans are so undefined.
every day my heart breaks knowing that in a year I’ll have to let you go.
every day I contemplate leaving you to avoid a bigger heartbreak.
every day I hear your voice and nothing else matters.
i haven’t been this in love in a very long time. life is so good right now in this moment.
so here we are again. that all too familiar feeling. that ache in my bones. the longing in my heart.
what have I learned?
I fear my destiny in life will be to love so intensely.
I have this insatiable need to give love, and this never ending desire to receive it.
if I had to pick a vice, it would be love.